Some ideas hit me a little bit late . Once every so often I suddenly get a concise and comprehensive insight on an event . Often , it seemed ,the insight arrived in the middle of the night like a night stalking burglar . The moribund bulb one way or another brightly lights up . Years late , sometimes . But still .
Lately I’ve been pondering what college I should have gone to . I had an uncle at the time all those many years ago who lived in San Diego . My dad suggested that maybe I attend University of California at San Diego . I could live with my Uncle John and Aunt Ann . They had a plain little house in a shapeless S.D. neighborhood . Their house was amazingly similar to Ada’s and my plain little house in our non-chic neighborhood .
No way did I want to do that at the time . But , maybe it would have been a good idea , I think now .
Wow , how my life would have gone other places !
If I had been wiser then I would have realized that the experience might well have been a wonderful one for me . The thin threads of my life’s weave would have been woven together differently , would have made an other cloth ; not the one that is now .
I sit here wondering , at the keyboard , pondering possibilities , the missed opportunities , the wisdom of the choice . Where would I be otherwise ? Where would any of us be ? A silly question , a useless quest . I don’t regret . I just wonder . Why do I think of that past passed decision now so many years removed from it ? I wonder about that too .
The answers will come to me . One of these years .